Finding the Light in the Ordinary (another way to say, being content with a boring season)
Before I share the hopeful purpose of this blogpost, I want to begin with sharing the dreary and uncolored page first. That way we can color the pages as go through it together - both coming out more hopeful and excited for our tomorrow.
My life after graduation has been simple as this: continue working at my part-time job, saving every paycheck for my wedding & honeymoon, and often times, going home tired (usually due the lack of physical movement and social interaction for half of my day - which would lead to napping a lot). The early exciting feelings from scoring my first office job started to faded away, and now I settled into a weekly routine.
To keep it straightforward, I was started to get bored and sad.
I would blame my sadness for the lack of face to face interaction at my part-time job (I work alone in my office and have zero to minimal social interaction). I would even blame that it was because my office doesn't have windows. Although the lack of sunlight does have scientific evidence that it can lead to sadness (or S.A.D.).
But regardless of whatever excuse I would come up with, I knew the underlying issue was more a heart problem. I was discontent. I didn't like this "boring" season I'm currently in. I didn't like the "saving" part, and wanting the "spending" part to come in.
But, with every good fruit, there must be that time of quiet grow. In order to reap the benefits of what's being sowed, there must be a patience consistent hand plowing away. You see, I'm someone who doesn't like too much of a structure and too much of a routine - but at the same time, I'm not someone who likes too much of chaos and too much of big changes - but despite of what I like and what environmental situation I'm in....this I know: God calls us to adapt to Him, join Him, and have a heart able to serve Him wherever we are!
And through that understanding, I learned a couple of things:
1. He wants us to do whatever we do joyfully for Him. Now I work at my job with lots of joy, stepping out go beyond of what I'm asked to do! I am even trying to remodel my office to make it feel more like "me" and less like a dull box! I'm thinking about chic-ing it up in there.
2. My days are filled with purpose. I was just standing around the front door (the only place where I can get sunlight at work haha) and it hit me, "oh wow, everything this is with purpose. what if God has placed me to work at church for a reason?" I am a huge believer that things don't just happen without purpose - so remembering that truth made it easier to rest in His promises and work diligently!
3. I need to enjoy the simple, non-chaotic days! Now when I say I'm bad with big changes, I tell you that I am really bad at them. I know that next year, there will be so many big changes happening in my life: like getting married, moving out and living on my own (with my future husband!!!!), possibly moving to a new town or state (or country - because God always works in mysterious ways so why not include that as well), working a possibly new job, different life circumstances, etc. So with all of those unknown changes, it makes me treasure these somewhat knowable days even more.
And so through those revelation, I was able to find the light in the ordinary and enjoy each day for what it is. So here's to celebrating the ordinary and I hope you all are able to as well.